Sunday, April 22, 2012
So, currently I feel that I've sort of completely lost my mind. What's funny is that I can still rationalize everything. I know why I've made certain terrible decisions. I know what lead me to them. I just don't know how to NOT make them. I feel that I'm weak willed. I am the most lost as I have ever been in my life. And all I want to do is tell people about it. Or find some way to fill the hole. I can't decide what more to say.
at 4:57 PM
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
So I have been a very baaaad member of this group. And I'm sorry. I really did fully intend on writing something for it every month but sometimes life just gets away from you.
I've been in a bit of a funk lately. I haven't been doing much writing. I simply haven't felt very creative. It's almost as though my mind is numb and I can't come up with ANYTHING interesting to say much less the words to describe it. With this being the predominant feeling that I have had, I haven't felt much like sharing.
That being said, I decided to pick up my computer and write today. It just came to me. Even if it is just a few blog posts. It's something. So, this is a very boring post, but I'm gonna try. Harder. Better. More. And I wish all of you other writers much success and no writers-block in the coming year. Happy New Year to one and all.
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(yeah, so I suck at the html... I'll work on it)
So, usually, I don't make New Year's Resolutions. This is usually due to the fact that I feel somewhat shallow and cliched about stating that I want to lose weight or some such nonsense as that. But this year, I'm going to make some... and post them publicly for accountability.
1. Find myself
This isn't absolute. I don't have to have my whole life figured out. But I need to find a core. I need to dig myself out of this fluctuating sadness. I need to make changes. Make myself into a person that I can admire. Quit being so self-destructive.
2. Learn to play the guitar
Much less weighty and still yet something I have always wanted to do. I'm gonna be sexy as shit.
Lesser (but still important) resolutions:
1. 365 project
I have already started. I will take at least one photo a day to be compiled into some sort of visual depiction of my year. I'm pretty excited and I hope I don't forget to take a shot every day.
I want to work on my house. I've been living with hand-me-down furniture for many, many years and I need things around me that illustrate my personal sense of style. I think this means I may create my own wall art. I have been seeing some fun/easy DIY art projects on Pinterest that I considering.
So for the moment I am excited about my projects. Some are, understandably, going to be much harder than others. But I'm all over it. Happy New Year.